Ndiqhelene nala maxesha oloyiko, imvakalelo endicinga ukuba bendinokuba nayo ukuba ndingaxelelwa ukuba ndihambe kwintambo enqamlezileyo kwi-Empire State Building.
Kulungile, ndiyaqala ukuphelelwa lithemba kwakhona. Ndiye ndafowunela uTata sele ndixakiwe ngobu busuku. Ndiqhelene nala maxesha oloyiko, imvakalelo endicinga ukuba bendinokuba nayo ukuba ndingaxelelwa ukuba ndihambe kwintambo enqamlezileyo kwi-Empire State Building.
Njengoko umhlobo osenyongweni esithi, "uyihlo olihlwempu." Akumangalisi ukuba i-mantra yakhe kudade kunye nam ithi, "kumnandi ukufumana iqabane lomphefumlo kunye neqabane lobomi bonke, kodwa abantwana ngokuqinisekileyo lukhetho. Ndithetha ukuba ndineminyaka engama-61 kwaye imisebenzi yam isekude ukuphela. " "Ngaba uthi awuyithandi?" Ndabuza ndidlala. Akukho mpendulo.
Ndiyasibona isizathu sokuba imisebenzi yobutata ibe ngathi yiveki yokutya okushiyekileyo ngoku. Ndalunywa kwaye ndakhala malunga nokungatyhileki komntu ongaqondakaliyo. Indoda eyimfihlakalo ngumhla wamva nje okanye umyeni onokubakho. Kutheni imfihlelo? He's sporadic, unpredictable, can be sweet, abonakale, anyamalale, abe buthuntu ngathi yi frying pan, ngeyona ndlela ingaqhelekanga andikhumbuze ngo she-boss, at times ndiyamthanda but most of the time ndiyamoyika kwaye. mdelele ngokuba nzima ukujongana naye. Amaxesha amaninzi kumhlaba we-cubicle ndihlala apho ndingcangcazela ezibhutsini zam, ndizibuza ukuba uza kuthini, uza kusabela njani, andiqinisekanga nokuba kutheni kufuneka ndikhathalele ngenxa kaKristu.
Utata uthi kutheni ndingakwazi ukuphatha indoda engaqondakaliyo njengoyena mhlobo usenyongweni kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, kwaye ndingalindelanga kwaye ndibe ndim nje. Hleka. Dlala. Ncuma. Yiba nolonwabo kwaye wonwabe umzuzu, ngenxa kaThixo. Kutheni ndingakwazi ukuhamba kunye nokuhamba? Mbuze ukuba ucinga ntoni ngegumbi lakho (yayiyindlu yehagu enebhedi engondlulwanga kunye nempahla emdaka egcwele phantsi), thetha ngemarike yemasheya (andikwazi nokwenza izibalo), thetha ngokubhubha kukaChuck Prince (zamla) , malunga nokuqubha (yay), ngomsebenzi wakhe (ndiye ndayiphepha le nto ukuze acinge ukuba ndiyi-gold digger), mxelele ngomsebenzi wakho ngendlela eqhelekileyo, thetha ngeemuvi, umculo, ungahlali apho kwaye Thetha ngobudlelwane bakho kwaye ubuze “kutheni ungandifowuneli okanye undithumelele i-imeyile. Heyi ndifundile 'iMithetho'" kwaye ayisebenzi. "
UTata uyaqhubeka...Kodwa kungakuhle ukumbuza indlela yokunxibelelana, yeyiphi eyona ndlela yokufikelela kuye ukuba ufuna nje ukufumana ikofu, okanye ukubetha impepho, kodwa nceda usele ngaphambi kokuba ukwenze oko kuba awufuni. andifuni ukuba nexhala kakhulu. Kwaye yingxaki endihlala ndiyicinga. Kwixesha lokugqibela le-ADHD guinea pig pow wow ugqirha wengqondo waxakeka malunga nokugula, indlela i-ADHD ehlala isiza ngayo ngababini nenye into efana nezilwanyana ezikumkhombe kaNowa. Kum yi-cocktail ye-ADHD kunye nexhala. Yonke imihla ndiphila ngathi ndiqubha kukho ukrebe emva kwam. Ngeentsuku ezimnandi ndiyazixelela, heyi kukutya kombhali kum, kodwa into endingazange ndiyixelele abanye kukuba iyanya. Ndingathanda ukuba nengqondo ebalekayo, ingqondo ethe saa. Ndingathanda ukungahlali nedabi elithe cwaka lokuzibamba kwinto evakala ngathi ziimostang zasendle.
Buyela kwingxaki yomfo. Ndiyazibuza ukuba kutheni ndingenakuba nje mna. Kutheni kukho uvalo? “Andisokuze ndihlale ndinje,” nditsho kuTata. “Yinto eqhelekileyo, iwotshi yebhayoloji iqhelekile,” utshilo. Angazi njani, ngumfana, ndiyacinga.
Ngomzuzu ozolileyo ndiyazi ukuba ndingaba ndim, kodwa andifuni ukoyikisa igalari yabafana. Okwam okwenyani kuninzi kwam i-ADHD yam. Ndilinenekazi eliphethe ibhegi, ndisindwa zizipaji, iibhegi zokuthenga. Ndiyabonwa kwaye nditsalwa kwiivenkile ezingenakubalwa kwisiXeko saseNew York njengomazibuthe. Ebusika kunokwenzeka ukuba ndinxibe iimpahla ezine kwaye ndilibale enye. Ndiyazithanda iivenkile zokudlala kwaye ndonwabile kwi-slinkys, i-play-doh kunye neepudding pops. Uyaphila umntwana kum. Ndiza kufumana i-ayisikrimu ngesidlo sakusasa kunye ne-cereal ngesidlo sakusihlwa. Umntu wam wokwenyani uyakuthanda ukwenza iziqhulo, ukuthetha mdaka, eyona nto ndiyiyo idelela kwaye iyandlongondlongo. Kodwa ngekhe wazi nanye kwezi zinto kuba ndiyoyika kakhulu ukukhulula phambi kwakhe nabani na. Kukhuselekile ngakumbi ukubeka uDonga oluKhulu kwaye ugcine ezi mfihlo zimnyama kwikhabhathi.
Kutshanje iipilisi zomlingo, eziphulukene nomlingo wazo, ziyandisinda, zindenza ndibe luhlaza ngakumbi kunelanga. Namhlanje ndimope emsebenzini, ndisitya ukutya okuncinci kwaye ndihlamba intlanzi yegolide, itshokolethi kunye nantoni na endinokuyifumana. Umphathi wakhe wandibona ndidlula ngaseofisini yakhe wavala ucango emva kokuba ndidlule. Ndicinga ukuba uyoyika ukuba ndingangena ndize ndizise ezinye iindaba ezimbi.
Ndabukela laa gxa wam echola impumlo ngapha kwam eshixiza nentshaba enolwimi olutyibilikayo. Baphuma baya kwisidlo sasemini kunye. Kutheni le nto le ndawo yokusebenzela indikhumbuza amasikizi asesikolweni samabanga aphakamileyo? Ndifike nje ndahlala edesikeni yam ndibonakala ndibotshelelwe esitulweni sam, ndenza ngathi andikhathali phofu bendifuna ukuthandwa nokwamkelwa.
Late ndiye ndadikwa kwaye ndidiniwe yinto yonke. Ezo klasi zamaKatolika ngobusuku bangoLwesine ziye zaba yinto ekruqulayo. Bendihambe ngethemba lokufumana inkosana enomtsalane, kodwa ngenxa yokuba uninzi lwabantu balapho benxibe imisesane yomtshato, ithemba lam liphelile. Kwaye ngandlela-thile ingcamango yokuguqula ubuKatolika ngenxa yokufumana uMnu.
Ndiye ndadlala ihuka ngokuhlwanje ndaya kuqubha endaweni yoko. Imvumi ebhityileyo yaseRussia-yaseMelika yayilapho, inesimo sayo esibukhali sobu-snooty. Italente yakhe ekhethekileyo kukuba ubonakala engenamanzi abandayo. Kwimpelaveki ephelileyo eBrighton Beach ndambukela etyibilika emanzini angama-53, equbha i-freestyle kangangemizuzu engama-40, kwaye ephuma encumile ebusweni bakhe. “Bendinokuqubha eminye imizuzu engama-20,” watsho. Ndaqala ndangcangcazela ndimjongile nje. Ndimthiye igama elithi Polar Bear intombi.
Ngobubusuku umfo osisidudla uChaz (ebendithanda ndade ndamdiza) uzicinezele kulamzi wethu. Ucotha ngokwenene. Besibaleka i-50 kwaye ebesekumlenze wokuqala we-pool. Intombazana yasePolar Bear kunye nam sasikhohlakele kwaye sihlekisa ngayo, sincwina njengoko wayephefumlela phezulu emva kokubaleka, kwaye satyibilika phantsi kwamanzi ukuze aphefumle. “Uphinda angene phantsi njengokrebe,” ndatsho. “Hayi umnenga,” wahleka.
Bekuvakala kumnandi ukuba kubi. Ndiyathanda ukumisa i-middle streak simahla. Ndahlala ndicinga ukuba amanzi asebenza imimangaliso kum ngaphezu kokuba u-Eli Lilly uya kwenza. Emanzini ndikhululekile, ndiziva ngathi ndiyabhabha. Ndifike ndacinga ukuba ngoMvulo xa ndibona indoda kaBhuda ndiza kumxelela ukuba amayeza ayanya, awasebenzi, ndiphelelwe lithemba. Ndifuna isiqalo esitsha kunye nesiqalo, kufuneka ndifumane ukuncipha kwenyani, ongazukuzama ukundifaka iziyobisi ngalo mzuzu ndingena kuwo. Ndingumntu emva kwayo yonke into.
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